an ordinary life

You know what I miss???

I miss the days when a "child free night" ment NO children.
I miss the days when "I'm not cooking dinner" ment that Brad would cook or we bought chinese.
I would even settle for the days when a quick breastfeed was all that was needed to settle Hallie into a deep slumber for at least a few hours.
The days when I could feed her without even getting up, and the days when she would sleep soundly on the lounge (gasp- bad mummy) so I didnt even have to get up to put her to bed.

I relise all of this makes me sound exteamly lazy and to be truthful that is exactly what I am very VERY lazy. I havent even brought the washing in off the line yet- I actually long for cold wet winter days when the washing cant be hung out and I have the perfect excuse to put it all in the clothes dryer.
I long for weekends when my wonderful night in shining armour (ok not quite but...) is home and will do some (and if I play it right) all of the above mentioned. Although I do try to not play on this to much as I know he will some wear tired and not doing any of it.

I would love to say I know whats for dinner- well actually I kinda have it worked out- fish chips and salad- all out of a packet- BEAUTIFUL! I am cooking Hallie's dinner...and would love to say she will eat it but truth be known she will throw it all on the floor and I will then have to crawl around on my hands and knees picking it all up.

Which brings me to more things I miss-
I miss walking - Not waddeling- I swear if we had duck hunting season I would be shot!
I miss being a size 8- (I have a right to miss this its been sooooo long)
I miss my husband finishing work on time can you beleive there was once a time when he would pick me up from work at 5:45pm LOL it was so cute.. be stuffed if it would happen now, not a chance in hell.

So typing this has brought me back to this very serious problem I am having...HOW the HELL am I going to bring up 4- yes thats right FOUR, (when you say it right it sounds so huge) children- mothers of 4 are organised- they dont spend their days going between the computer their scrapping desk and the phone, I am sure they dont. And if they do I would hate to see their houses cos mine looks like crap when I do that.
I am dead certain they dont get their entire dinner from packets and I bet you anything they vacum more then once a week, I mean you would have to I vacumed yesterday and trust me today you cant tell.

As it is far to late in this process of becoming a family of 6 (yeah now I scared ya hey) to do anything about it I have a feeling that for a long time and am going to be missing anything that resembles ME time.

(sigh) 6weeks and 4days to go...am I ready for this??? I dont even have a name picked out!