an ordinary life

The Dream is Slipping.


We are currently waiting on finance to be approved so we can buy a new car. And well at the moment I can see it slipping further and further out of reach. It is making me very upset so I am trying not to think about it, and trying not to let it worry me, but really everything we planned relies on this.

If we cant get a new car we cant have another baby, and that really breaks my heart. We were meant to hear back yesterday but then they wanted more paper work, more proof of things, which is fine we can provide all of it, but for some reason it just doesnt have the same feeling about it that everything else we have done has. Things just some how always work and well, this just isn't.

So I have made a plan- If we cant get this approved for the amount we want, we are going to drop the whole thing for 12 months. I will go back to work and forget the baby plans too. Brad doesnt want me to go back to work, he likes me being at home with the kids. So we have come to the agreement that if it comes to this I will wait til Jacob is at school next year and then we only have to put Hallie in daycare. And I wont go back full time.

I guess now we wait to see what our future holds and see if the dream is still in reach.



Watch this space!